Does the Bloggernaccle make Church boring?
I get very little out of church nowadays. Certainly I feel spiritually refreshed when I take the sacrament, but that takes all of 10-15 minutes. Certainly, I hear a new insight shared in class every few months or so, but it doesn?¢‚Ç¨‚Ñ¢t happen every week.
Sometimes I feel like, what?¢‚Ç¨‚Ñ¢s the point? Why attend gospel doctrine class when all that?¢‚Ç¨‚Ñ¢s going to be said is the same thing that was said four years ago? Why attend elders quorum when all that?¢‚Ç¨‚Ñ¢s going to be done is the ?¢‚Ç¨?ìinstructor?¢‚Ç¨¬ù will read from the book and ask the obligatory questions at the end of the chapter? I can go home early and get more from personal study.
At least when I was teaching the deacons each Sunday until last august, I felt like coming to Church had more purpose than taking the Sacrament. The responsibilities I have now as ward clerk certainly are not Sunday specific (except for meeting attendance).
Some might say that there?¢‚Ç¨‚Ñ¢s more to Church than learning. True. Supposedly, we are supposed to find fellowship with the saints. I must be missing something, because that fellowship jut doesn?¢‚Ç¨‚Ñ¢t seem to be there. Well, it is sort of.
All the young married couples are friends because they attended the YSA wards together. All the older people?¢‚Ç¨‚Äùthe doctors, lawyers, accountants, business owners?¢‚Ç¨‚Äùare friends, but only because they are neighbours in upscale Tudor Estates and Park Royal. Most everyone else is a multi-generation Mormon with roots back to Utah and New England. We certainly do not fit into any of the groups here in this ward, let alone in the city.
That?¢‚Ç¨‚Ñ¢s not to say we haven?¢‚Ç¨‚Ñ¢t tried. We have had numerous couples and families over to our house to visit, have supper and/or to play games. Only one couple has reciprocated that gesture. Our home teachers hardly even come visit us; November was the last month.
There is no one like us here; no one with whom we feel a kinship; no one whom we can call our friends.
So, fellowship is out of the question. Which brings me back to my original question: does the Bloggernaccle make Church boring?
Has my exposure to thought-provoking dialogue spoiled me? Has my desire to answer deeper gospel questions warped my expectations of Church? Do I need something more than fluffy experiences and cookie cutter testimonies? Can I find fulfillment in repetitive Correlation materials presented without uniqueness?